It’s easy to misplace true life with dreams. I hear many people today with motivational speeches saying, “go for your dreams”, and I agree with that, you should.
I have to add to it that life, in its cleanest form is evolution of the soul.
Dreams are extra, dreams are dreams and they are fun and games, but if you don’t know that they are fun and games then you get caught up in the misery and suffering when they are not aligned with your soul evolution.
A long time ago, I used to read tarot. It was one of those things that tagged along with my numerology studies, and it was the beginning of my path to awakening. In principle, I don’t read them anymore because how can I do it when I know that each one of us creates his own path?
At the time, I learned something about images and imprints, I also learned about anticipation, emotions, and expectations. The Sun, the universe, the Star, and many other extra positive cards showed a bright outcome. They showed fluffy clouds, sunny days, and happy ending- but in reality, it was a blub. And the dark bad images of strife and contraction were also a blub. A small point in time, a tiny event that when those cards manifested in life they amounted to nothing.
Imagine me realizing that there are 78 organs in the body, and 78 tarot cards. The emblem and occult of just that little thing called tarot on the ‘spiritual’ student is something to examine carefully, at least be aware of what you are using.
A symbol is a condensed mark of a manifested world, BUT when you know it, you can twist it and manipulate the subconscious of the person that is looking at it.
For example, 3.14159265358979323846264338327950288419716939937510 is π, and that is clear and forward.
And what about this one?
Can you tell what it is hiding? And what is the intention behind it? Just a thought.
I am learning in spirals, I guess I am aligned with this universe. Good good.
I was married for three years. In a nutshell it was my hell to raise and my hell to escape, and I did. Today, I can’t even tell you if I divorced in 2001 or 2002. But for a few years it was all I could talk about.
“He did this to me, he was like that…”
Every time I was interacting in a deep personal conversation, I had the urge to mention my terrible marriage, and I was very emotional about it but still, trying to hide it- to show strength. Inside, I was very angry. Angry with him, but mainly angry with myself for letting it happen.
My ex died in 2005, it was very sad because I loved him. A year or two later (who counts), I met a friend of my ex that started talking about him as if he was the greatest guy in the universe.
I lost it. I blew up like a firecracker on steroids. I shouted from the top of my lungs, “how dare you? How dare you make this bastard a martyr?! And talk to me about it as if you don’t know?” I went on and on and counted all the things that I have suffered by his hands. I did it with all my anger and tears exposed.
This was the last time I mentioned anything about my marriage.
Looking at the sudden change- the empty space that used to be so charged with emotions suddenly all gone like a blank page- I realized the work I have done.
Since then, every time there is a gap between where I want to be and how I feel, I stop everything, and I talk. I became my own psychologist. Moving energies and keeping myself clear.
I am a healer by birth. A healer that ditched the healing practices because I realized how so many of them that I crossed path with are unevolved in so many aspects. Sorry, I don’t mean to get down on healers because there are great ones everywhere but there is a fundamental misunderstanding of the human unit in our society, and yes, we are getting closer, I guess Jesus is in the area.
In my spiral of personal evolution, in one of my crossroads, I thought I should go back to fulfill my soul assignment. In 2017 I was ready. Kinda. I went to study Holographic Kinetics and hypnosis. Holographic Kinetics is aboriginal method that was refined and brought to the west. Working with the spirit body connecting spaces.
I learned a lot. The method didn’t interest me so much, I used it a little and moved very fast to a combination of my observations from life, awareness, and all methods mishmash.
I wish I could make this writing a practical tool for people that are looking for solutions. We are individuals and no story is like the other.
Some people don’t understand from where the habitual emotion is coming from because they can’t remember the event that created it.
Others may remember the event that causes the disturbance, but there is a build-up of layers of protective emotions and brain mechanism that first needs to be peeled off and understood- because what happens is misalignment of synapses, so the neurons are not in the correct place to flow. You can’t solve it with treating one body- it is not only mental, or only emotional, or only physical. It is a combo, and for that you need to know how to deal with a unified field, but also work with each body separately.
Whatever shows up in the manifested universe starts at the spirit level. It doesn’t matter what it is. The missing link in our society is not spirit, but the understanding of it. Spirit- spiral… connections are endless when you start looking, aren’t they?
A little large background
When a soul comes into a body, it comes with all its memory imprinted into the body from the spirit that it is made of. You can trace this thing called spirit all the way to the original consciousness-thought that brought the universe into existence.
In separation, a human body is created.
Remember that nothing is lost in the mess of the universe, it only changes and shifts from one form into another. Also, the expansion of the universe is a starch of it, and it happens through movement and experience into a larger space.
So, just a short repeat from Healing thoughts part one- the body holds the memories of that soul and of the lineage it came from. DNA RNA. One is for the earthly evolution of the body consciousness and the other is for soul consciousness.
One from below and one from above- but not exactly.
When a body that contains soul dies, the energy/the spirit that contains its memory finds a way to continue its growth in a new body and that body is found according to the laws of the universe. Usually finding its way close to the familiar so it can continue its journey.[this is a spiral to open another time]
We are two (body and spirit) that become one soul in a way, as it is much more complicated than that because from the minute a soul is born until it came to earth it has its history. So, a soul also has another line of time because how can you measure time outside of the loop of time? What star have you come from and how evolved or devolved it got?
Think about a human being as a fusion container for matter and antimatter, and I know it sounds ridiculous because matter and antimatter supposed to explode when colliding, but maybe a better word for it is release of enormous energy.
This is true awakening of the being that you are. Crazy ecstatic explosions, light surge flowing free. But first to the healing, and another word for it, is to find that thing that is the sum of yourself.
In this world, as we opened and closed large cycles of time, fusion and ascension happening all the time. There are levels to it as there are levels to growth, capacities, and functions. It is a symphony of interaction between us to know ourselves.
Your memories, learnings, consciousness, is one thing. The body that you receive from your mom and dad is another thing. When you come into the world, there is a match between what you came to do here, what you need to learn and/or teach, or evolve to, and the body that will match it on the evolution scale. So yes, you choose your parents because you are very much aware of yourself as a soul/spirit consciousness. And the idea is to grow our bodies into the light to match higher consciousness- bring it back together eventually.
[Sometimes I think it is the opposite. You might think I am crazy, but I think the human body is more evolved than most of us and we are trying to find a way to it. Just a thought.]
And if we look at the planet which our body came from, we deviated from it until now, and we, in general, the past few thousands of years started from the beginning because of the heavy energies that were created in the previous cycle. I am talking about multi layered, multi facets, and a universe that is so fascinating to explore.
Many souls on earth already had other lives, either here on this planet or in another place. And this universe is billions of years old, so yes, some souls are pretty old in terms of earthly time. Many of them don’t come to earth anymore, and many of them have not been on earth yet.
After all, some great buddhas integrated their material body and light body cycles ago. We are doing it now. As you/we/I grow you realize how the universe or cosmos, which in many ways is the body of god, works. It is how you become one with it, we are always a part of it. It is a process of self outside of self, not self, yes self, discovery.
The learning, or what you came to do, depends on matching energies that was decided before you were born by you and your guides. (Your guides are higher dimensions of yourself)
In our life as humans, we are holding the two polarities, consciousness and physical. Awareness is consciousness, and physical is light. The light is infused by spirit that holds the consciousness. Spirit is a form made of electrical current and it’s like light information- light can be bright or dim. The physical is a light body in a perfect dimension.
The law of the universe is working with you before you are born. The important ones that are at work in this process are, the law of correspondence, the law of cause and effect, and the law of vibration.
There is a match that is at work to find the fitting vibration to your awareness. Your awareness is your ability to process and learn, realize, and act on what you have been through, which is your stories and experiences.
The law of correspondence says as above so below. What does it mean? It means that everything is one. It means that if you take from the equation of life, then there is going to be imbalance that is going to be imprinted in your own body and you will have to fix it by bringing back the balance. If it is not fixed, then you will have another opportunity to fix it, and another and another.
You are born.
Great. Where have you been? What have you done? What did you learn, or haven’t learned?
The first seven years of your life you can see all the things you came with. The blessings, the stories, the little things and big things, and also the trauma. The life that you chose is very specific, and there are no mistakes. Every little trauma that you are going through in your childhood from the time of conception, is not a trauma that began here, and it might not be a trauma at all, just a small imprint to your story to unfold.
It is what your spirit has drawn to it, to start repeating until you are aware of it. It can come from your lineage, or it can come from your own soul experience (which can be incarnations or star experience, or both, and if incarnation you might carry things from past lineage as well).
This is a hard truth because we are born so fragile, and most of us don’t remember anything. So how is it that we have done something like that to ourselves? And agreed to it too.
Our emotional state in the higher worlds is different than how we feel here. The physical body here is so subjective that we forget the truth. And the truth is that we are so great, and we are so powerful, so emersed in grace that we put ourselves into the test thinking that this time we will do it, of course we will. Easy. And we are thinking it with laughter and embrace. Bring it on.
By the time we collect ourselves, growing up in this world, we already forgotten because we are born into a system that is not supporting our memory, not supporting our spirit. It is not even the fault of the system because we built it to protect ourselves, and we did it because there is a big difference between the frequencies of where we came from to the frequencies of the physical life. And those frequencies are different from each other because of the state of mind of the collective on earth. (Remember the fall? A story for another time)
This is all changing now.
The true work on this planet is to remember yourself. Your body is not only physical, but it also includes all the subtle energies.
Your body is your spaceship.
There were stories before humans, some of them are still looking for their pieces on earth. Earth wasn’t meant to be heavy, and I know some people will debate it, I will debate it too because who says that what happened wasn’t supposed to happen? I don’t know the answer to that. I can only bet on ignorance, but then, can I blame a child for being ignorant? It is all a part of the becoming.
And in time, light beings did come to remind us of who we are, like Siddhartha the Buddha, like Jesus Christ, and many other saints and great minds over the thousands of years, showing us light and love.
This playground is not only ours, humans. This is paradise, and it belongs to the universe, and we are not the only ones that are learning, every star, every sun, every bird, every leaf, every cow, every dog, every rock, all growing, learning changing and becoming.
And now, it is up to us. It is now. How do we do it?
Become a deep expensive investor of your own psyche, or your own innermost dark places. And when you finally touch on that place that vibrates like a crazy demon from hell and you manage to open your heart and see the hurt being that couldn’t handle the crime scene he witnessed- you cry with it. Release.
What inspires change?
Maybe a personal realization that you have the power to move through a difficult bridge. Integrate in such a way that create expansion of your own being.
It enlarges the capacity to hold more emotion. We just need to face it, look at it, breathe through it, decide to understand it, forgive ourselves, let ourselves walk that bridge slowly, and maybe knowing that if you fall there is a net that will catch you.
I tell you this: we embedded with shit pile of symbols to make us believe, to imprint us with failure, fear the abyss when there is no abyss.
Just a torch that can turn into a cosmic fire in your heart.
Eventually we are all swimming in a pool of energy that shapes around us according to our movements. And our future is everything that we are, only faster. Spirit is not out there, it is here. And you are a small body of light inside a large body of light. At one point you were shining, no matter who you are.
Time to rise and shine lovers.
Wow, I am so deeply grateful to have come across this post and your blog. I resonate with your words and appreciate your truthful expressions. Sending peaceful thoughts to evoke moments of blissful existence:) Thank you for being a part of such a beautiful creation.
Eden, this is beautiful.
I have so many thoughts, it's hard to organize them, because you've shared so much truth in one place. For now, I will sit with them.
On the symbol you shared--it is the unity of Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine. It is The Buddha, The Christ, in symbolic form. Something we are all here to accomplish.
I am going to recommend you on my page. You've made a reader out of me, and I know more people who will appreciate your work as I do.